38 days in Chastity. i feel like i am dying to cum someday. Hopefully i will get to touch Mistress's cock tonight, but that always depends on Her mood ( boy i hope She has a good time at spinning class tonight). i now have the most humiliating fantasies running through my mind, i would humiliate myself in any and every way possible just to be allowed to finally cum! If Mistress ordered it, i would do it! Mistress is right when She says that men's minds are just full of splooge. Also when She says, " control the cock, control the man." i even feel guilty when i am in the shower cleaning the device, being careful not to enjoy the warm water too much because after all....it is Her property.
The plug training She has me endure has reached 8 hours and has become second nature. in fact, due to the fact that Her cock has been off limits for so long, i actually enjoy it because is slightly grazes my prostate atleast giving me a slight teasing pleasure. i haven't got up the nerve to try milking myself yet partly because i am not sure it will actually work and partly because i have not been ordered too. if i did it without Mistress's permission then i would feel that i was cheating.
i look forward to what the future may hold and how Mistress will mold me. i almost beg for Her to humiliate me more and push any agenda She may have for me in the future. i would do whatever She says at this point, i would be Her dog, footstool, cuckhold clean up boy, Her whipping post, or lab rat. whatever She wishes i will be Her toy.
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