57 days

i have now made it 57 days, and thank Goddess that school has started again, it takes my mind off my suffering. Although watching all the pretty young Women walk around creates its own torture.
Today i went to the mail box....and there it was... a letter from Mistress Cassandra. I tore it open and found the contract ready for me to sign, along with my key! i have immediately signed it, and included a scanned copy here. Although my signature is slightly obsured for obvious reasons. Next i need to look into buying a real estate lock box so that Mistress can put my key into it, set the combination, and torture me by having it in front of me all the time.

50 days of lock up

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47 days

Still locked up with no end in sight. i was suppose to chat with Mistress Cassandra and Ms. Maddy last night, but i am having major computer problems right now. So today i have been cleaning out my files, and putting alot of em into the external hard drive i just bought, hopefully that helps out. i am starting to do some images in more of a comic stlye kind of like the ones you see from Sardax. Mistress loved the first one and may be posting it on Her blog soon. i plan to get a few more done and put then on a webpage but first i need to do a few more, and get the page put together. i will post a link when i do so.
Mistress's cock is still locked up and dripping just for some attention. it is a week since i have even been allowed to touch it. i don't have anyway out as of yet so i have no idea when i will get to touch it again, but that is up to Mistress and i shouldn't question Her , besides it is Her cock.

41 days

My chastity torment has now lasted 41 days. Mistress has one of my keys and made me mail a second one to myself. Well i got that key back, and was allowed to stroke Her cock last night, but of course was not allowed to cum once again. After this i was totally exhausted! being order to stroke Her tiny cock and not being allowed to have an orgasm is amazingly exhausting. After this session i was to mail Her the last remaining key and now am totally at Her mercy. She should recieve this finally key within the next few days.
Mistress also ordered my to buy a parachute ball stretcher and weights which i obediently ordered today and expect delivery within the next few days.
As for the painting i hope to update that tommorrow.

38th day

38 days in Chastity. i feel like i am dying to cum someday. Hopefully i will get to touch Mistress's cock tonight, but that always depends on Her mood ( boy i hope She has a good time at spinning class tonight). i now have the most humiliating fantasies running through my mind, i would humiliate myself in any and every way possible just to be allowed to finally cum! If Mistress ordered it, i would do it! Mistress is right when She says that men's minds are just full of splooge. Also when She says, " control the cock, control the man." i even feel guilty when i am in the shower cleaning the device, being careful not to enjoy the warm water too much because after all....it is Her property.
The plug training She has me endure has reached 8 hours and has become second nature. in fact, due to the fact that Her cock has been off limits for so long, i actually enjoy it because is slightly grazes my prostate atleast giving me a slight teasing pleasure. i haven't got up the nerve to try milking myself yet partly because i am not sure it will actually work and partly because i have not been ordered too. if i did it without Mistress's permission then i would feel that i was cheating.
i look forward to what the future may hold and how Mistress will mold me. i almost beg for Her to humiliate me more and push any agenda She may have for me in the future. i would do whatever She says at this point, i would be Her dog, footstool, cuckhold clean up boy, Her whipping post, or lab rat. whatever She wishes i will be Her toy.

painting update

As i said earlier here is a painting update. i started in on the backgroud, just fleshing in some of the books, they will become more detailed later and the colors will be muted down a little. originally i was going to do a generic background but changed my mind and said...what the heck and do a more complicated on, i need the prctice anyway.

35 days

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